Days lately are becoming more and more emotionally involved than usual....and only 3 people, including myself, know why. I hate riding the emotional rollercoaster; tears at one moment, laughter and smiles the next...suppressing the untold to everyone else but the 2 people and myself who only know. I wish I could tell everyone why I am acting this way when they ask me whats wrong, but I cant. No....too much information will be told. Maybe I am investing too many thoughts, too much time, and too much reading into it all to make days like this for myself...but I want the truth to be told. Soon. I think it has already been partially told, but 6 more days and then the final half of the truth will be told. There are two different truths I am awaiting for, but one I only want as the outcome. The result Im desiring is the right truth, not the wrong. It's always the waiting game when it comes to me/my life....and I usually never come out on top during this kind of game either. I never win.

Will I be punished for this?

Will I be able to tell everyone the wrong truth if thats the result?

Will I be a disappointment to everyone who loves me?

What will I do if the outcome is the wrong truth...the one I don't want?

Who will walk away from me and who will stay?